
the day after


a memory of Van Gogh by Anton Kerssemakers, found in “Van Gogh: a self portrait, letters revealing his life as a painter, selected by W.H. Auden”
In those days he was starving like a true Bohemian, and more than once it happened that he did not see meat (for the purpose of eating) for six weeks on end, always just dry bread with a chunk of cheese. It won’t go bad on the road, he would say. The following story may serve as proof that he was quite accustomed to this and would not have it otherwise. Once in Nuenen, when we were about to set out on a ramble-it was in the afternoon at the height of summer-I said, “To begin with we’ll have a pot of coffee made in that inn over there, and eat a lot of bread and butter with trimmings, then we shall be able to keep going until late this evening.”
No sooner said than done, for he invariably consented to whatever you proposed.
The table was well furnished with various kinds of bread, cheese, sliced ham and so on.
When I looked, I saw he was eating dry bread and cheese, and I said, “Come on, Vincent, do take some ham, and butter your bread, and put some sugar in your coffee; after all, it has to be paid for whether you eat it or not.”
“No,” he said, “that would be coddling myself too much: bread and cheese is what I am used to,” and he calmly went on eating.

One must have chaos in one, to give birth to a dancing star. – Nietzsche

I found a drawing this morning. At the bottom I had written “this is nothing/nothing can hurt you.”
And that explains why I’m painting now.

headwaters

heat wave

time lapses
It was just announced that my painting, “Nightwalk,” won the 2023 Inception contest from Sunspot Lit.
You can now purchase a beautiful 16×20 canvas print for $79 plus shipping. Contact me at: holeintheheadstudio@gmail.com for more information or to purchase.

Today I revised two paintings, drastically, and I’m happy with the results.



I’ve added paint to my morning meditation. I do one each day. Here’s the work from this week. Each one is 9×12 acrylic on paper. (the number after the title represents the number of days I’ve been in recovery…grateful recovery.)

LaVerna 2 birds #2432, July 17, 2023,

Anesthetized #2433, July 18, 2023

Terrarium #2434, July 19, 2023

On Hold #2435, July 20, 2023

Head Waters #2436, July 21, 2023